First Form

"Few things are as pure as handwritten words on a page." - Me, many times.

Original lyrics from Joe Strummer for "London Calling" from Google

First Form

I like to write

by placing pen to paper,

letting my words, my thoughts,

flow on to the page,

and spill into existence.

Taking the ideas, images, stories

from my head

and giving them life.

The first thoughts are unedited, uninhibited.

They are not always pretty,

and not always in the best language.

They are misspelled and written

in ways that only make sense to me.

But they are pure,

uninterrupted, clean, unmarked

and throat-scratchingly raw.

I like to let

my love, hatred, fear, and joy

find a place in the real world

yet still protected in my notebook.

I scrawl furiously

stopping only when

my mind is drained.

I always feel a sense

of joy and calm

when I see my words scribbled

across the previously blank lines,

now made permanent

in an unapologetic honestly.

It is then that my peace

can finally be realized.

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Restart

Restart

I wish I could just drive

until I get somewhere

new, where no one knows me.

I could step outside and breath

new air, with no trace of my past.

I want an adventure,

Sal and Dean style.

Everything a new experience,

a new story. A place where

my life is more exciting

than my dreams.

I could forget

the heartaches and breaks,

the tears and anger,

the missteps, the fuckups.

I could turn my head

to the sky, laugh out the bad

only leaving the good.

And then go 

on with my life.

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