Sunday, August 3, 2014

First Form

"Few things are as pure as handwritten words on a page." - Me, many times.

Original lyrics from Joe Strummer for "London Calling" from Google


First Form

I like to write
by placing pen to paper,
letting my words, my thoughts,
flow on to the page,
and spill into existence.
Taking the ideas, images, stories
from my head
and giving them life.

The first thoughts are unedited, uninhibited.
They are not always pretty,
and not always in the best language.
They are misspelled and written
in ways that only make sense to me.
But they are pure,
uninterrupted, clean, unmarked
and throat-scratchingly raw.

I like to let
my love, hatred, fear, and joy
find a place in the real world
yet still protected in my notebook.

I scrawl furiously
stopping only when
my mind is drained.

I always feel a sense
of joy and calm
when I see my words scribbled
across the previously blank lines,
now made permanent
in an unapologetic honestly.

It is then that my peace
can finally be realized.


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Restart


Restart

I wish I could just drive
until I get somewhere
new, where no one knows me.
I could step outside and breath
new air, with no trace of my past.

I want an adventure,
Sal and Dean style.
Everything a new experience,
a new story. A place where
my life is more exciting
than my dreams.

I could forget
the heartaches and breaks,
the tears and anger,
the missteps, the fuckups.

I could turn my head
to the sky, laugh out the bad
only leaving the good.
And then go 
on with my life.

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